First off, if your reading this know that i am not complaining about my life, its events, or the people i reference; i've just had a rough, super long day and i'm getting it out right now in hopes of actually being able to sleep when i lay my head down.
725 one of our own angels was welcomed into heaven, where he is currently working it with jesus ♥
1200 another angel was welcomed into heaven quite prematurely at the age of 18 after a fatal car crash
245 my gram tries to reconcile horrible relationships with other family members by blaming them. I've decided that the adage about admitting your problems is the first step to recover is true, if you cant admit you have a problem your never going to learn from it and grow. Anyways, i refuse to take part in such a hypercritical conversation, everyone makes mistakes and until you stop blaming others and take full responsibility for yourself there was no lesson learned and no point to your screw up. Maybe one day the "adults" in my family will realize that they too, need to grow up.
500 Im cornered by my step mom in relation to family issues, not only regarding the gram who was conversing earlier about it but also an aunt and uncle. I mean is this really necessary? All i'm trying to do is keep peace in all of my relationships within the family forget what everyone else is doing/not doing.
..on that note, my sister is getting married at my parents house in the spring of next year. considering current revelations in my lovely fathers side of the family, the fact that my mother and father despise each other and that my sisters fiancee's parents feel about the same as my parents do towards each other i'd say this mix makes for an awkward ass wedding. thank god for alcohol. seriously.
1000 Best friend from high school calls me to tell me her boyfriend broke up with her. While i've been the rock for myself as well as others today, this call drained any emotions i had left. Like how much can really happen in one day. I mean, yes i do realize things can get a lot worse..but this day has been chocked full of misfortunes for everyone in my life. I feel somewhat repulsed by this issue she is weighing her happiness so heavily on a boy..not a man, a BOY! It also gets to me because during my darkest days at college instead of being there she sat there trying to crack jokes...telling me how i should be more responsible etc...which is completely unsupportive. UGH
1045 Boy f (not the full boyfriend yet) got into a fight with his brother, is super upset...driving back to school in the middle of the night and its like a three hour drive. i have no reason to be upset about him not going to dinner at my sisters with me tomorrow but at the same time i'm sort of resenting that he couldnt just say no, instead of skating around telling me. Whatever, i'm sure its just the rest of todays events getting to me.
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